Today is one of those days when I realized that God is not going to let me off the hook! Hopefully, this will make sense to you. It begins with a small whisper from God about an idea, vision or portion of His plan for your life. Being hesitant, you acknowledge his voice yet you make no deliberate action towards the “thing”. So life proceeds on and there are preached sermons and quantifying situations where you KNOW that God is reinforcing that which you do not bring up in conversation. He can bring it up but you won’t!!!
At times, you can see that he is not letting up on this “thing” and you begin to relax to his plan and perspective. Just when you think you’ve found a safe space with God and at least, you’re not avoiding the “thing”; God drops a whammy! Holy Spirit, Jesus, and even the angels are in attendance when God pulls the rug from under you. This experience can be misread as tumultuous and hard yet God’s perspective is “time to go”! Me, I try to feign ignorance when I can’t wrap my head around it with confidence. Whether my confidence lacks due to my fear or lack of understanding, I am hesitant for a reason. Hesitancy convinces us that we’re buying time to adjust but for some of us, we’re just playing with fire essentially wasting time being unproductive.
Today, he pulled the rug and I couldn’t be upset because it slowly dawn on me after the initial pain, that God allowed it and I needed to accept his will for me. So I am in between a rock and a hard place because I refuse to go back. In front of me the way is unclear yet its bright enough for me to take a step in his direction. I describe it as walking the plank or toward the edge of a cliff and looking up to find that the path before me has shortened significantly and there is no room for retreat! These are the times that the word of God comes into action…”I press on to reach the end of the race and receive the heavenly prize for which God, through Christ Jesus, is calling us.” Philippians 3:14 NLT