Who could explain 

The tears in one’s eyes

No brain could conceive

The terror that racks the soul

Striking at the core of the stories untold

Repudiating emotional weakness’ lies

Fortify that passion aroused on the inside

Air it in the gait of your stroll

Who could explain

Looking for the prize of the highs

There’s no denying historic rise

Hearkening ears unable to discern sounds

Refusing to shuffle or labor bemoaned

Emerging against the cynicism around

Who could explain


© Cecilia Myles 2019

Just Forget About It

We are people prone to need others and an unfortunate side effect of this wonderful dynamic given to us by God is that we want approval, permission, confirming evidence  saying “ok”, “you’re right”! Yet to wait for that from others may mean that you don’t move when you should or you don’t speak when its your time. Missing the queue when its your turn can be alarming and further, isolating. Because not only are we wanting affirmation yet we now long for realization.

Looking for what is within from without and longing for what should be rather than accepting what is can be maddening, even numbing depending on how long you’ve been in such place. Yet there is hope! Here’s the answer, Jesus…How? He resets (Luke 5:12-13), he restores (Matthew 12:13), he performs vision adjustments (John 9:1-7) and much more!

Console thyself with this truth, you’re not stuck. You’ve got to forget about what was by rehearsing what’s possible. Take in new thoughts on your concern through prayer, information gathering, studying the word of God. Enjoy new experiences with expectation of good outcomes. Learn something new and develop discipline and habits to support new growth and outlook. Let the old fall away and embrace the newness of life that Christ provided through faith. Faith not just in who He is, conjoin that faith to what He’s said about you through the word of God improving your perspective on self. All things are possible to him that believe, choose to believe (Mark 9:23).

So get up, shake the dust out of your hair, get the cobwebs out of your ears and forget about what was and get ready for what will be! #forgetaboutit #startagain #returntohope

Walking on Water

It has been months since I was on my blog to share my thoughts. Not because I haven’t been thinking but because I was distracted. Distracted by what? Schooling, serving in a local church, family, and maintaining inner peace while doing all of those things. Did I know that I would become so overwhelmed, not at all! I thought I could handle it and to some degree, I did…GPA is 3.875, ministry growth occurred during my tenure, family has fared quite well despite the start of the 2018, and I did not catch a case! Heaven rejoices, lol.

No longer a dream, blurry picture, or contrived desire for relevancy, I am working the call, the plan, and God’s image for me. I know it is true and vibrant for me to be in this space and moment. This moment is me being me and not fulfilling a role! It is electrifying and powerful, it is awakening and grounding in nature. It puts me to sleep and awakens me. I can actually hear the vision calling me, not just ruminating in my thought but coming out of my mouth. I am talking about it, studying it, researching it, praying it, writing about it, and loving it.

Having children doesn’t feel like this, getting married doesn’t feel like this, and earning degrees does not feel like this! None of those moments were empty or less impactful, they were just different. I’m releasing my uniqueness and beauty in the earth that was assigned to me. People will be positively impacted by it and their lives will be made better because I did not give up on showing up.

I couldn’t have known that it would feel like this yet I am grateful to God that He has carried me through despite my ignorance. He fashioned me for it and never let me go. I’ve had to learn how to think different, behave accordingly, and love freely that I may become me. I had to learn because where I started I was not truly me. I never knew me or embraced me…yet in learning of Christ, I have learned of me. The real me came to life and now is ready to make moves, lol. At the loss of my father, I had no idea on what I would become without being able to defer to him. Taking God’s offer to father me, now I see that I didn’t need to know what, I just needed to let go of the reins to be who I am.

So like Peter, I’m seeking to walk on water and defy the rage of the storms (Matthew 14:22-33 KJV).

Ceci, just being me!

Making the Most of Gaps

Its been almost four months since I have written a post. Not because I had nothing to say yet because I didn’t want to add unnecessarily to conversation(s). Everything thought doesn’t need to be shared. So here I am relating on the value of gaps and why they occur.

My four month gap has been filled with much activity and great process but it wasn’t expected nor do I think I was prepared for such a moment. It arrived suddenly and it is slowly concluding. My eyes were opened before its onset. I saw something coming my way and as it got closer, I had some clarity but not total clarity. And before I could backpedal or ask questions of God, it was looking me closely in the face where I could feel its very breath on me. No distraction could pull me out of its grips and no prayer would relieve its’ pressure, it was my turn and I had to endure it.

Intriguingly, I could’ve used the break! Some of the previous things were no longer healthy for me and my actions/words were becoming fewer. I needed refreshing yet I figured that keeping up my water intake would suffice. Yet I didn’t know what kind of stuff was brewing in my underbelly that was causing the upset on my top layer. I just “figured” my own way and I discovered my own way was wrong as usual, God is my best way EVERYTIME.  You know, this response was due to a temporary loss of memory of who He is, it happens to everyone.😊

So I take my seat on this train and will see what the next stop will reveal. I like others disregard gaps. Becoming depressed or lonely, we gather that its imbalance somewhere or its inherent to our faults. These ideas may be false, they were for me. The truth is, I needed time to explore. Not wander which implies travel with no aim but explore meaning to uncover what is not known. Traveling is not always leisurely nor burdensome. When traveling with the intention to explore it can provide some insight or discovery, even if you’ve traveled the route before.

Enduring gaps are no different, I uncovered internal elements unseen that required analysis through prayer and study. I welcomed some discoveries and chagrined at others. Despite what was uncovered, I felt the loving hand of God moving me forward. For external matters, I found my perspective was skewered for various reasons. This process was necessary for my growth and improvement and this was proven to me by the presence of God’s love in the process.

It’s the beginning of the year and everyone wants to forget all of last year. Yet I realize that there were lessons in the last year that are part of my gap that I need to retain so my future will continue getting brighter. So to make the most of my gaps, I’m choosing to keep the lessons and insights improving my approach and methods allowing God to take any associated pain away.  Giving focus, prayer, biblical study, analysis, with application of wise actions as well as refreshing breaks. (Note that wise actions include actively rejecting self-pity, rehearsal of great losses/missteps, taking on of ungodly burdens, and conforming to worldly expectations.) Wrapping myself in a worshipful atmosphere ensures that this gap is impactful and fruitful. That makes not only the gap but also my journey valuable and replenishing, naturally and eternally. So when the gap closes, I’m confident that I’m better for it.

Truth is my focus, truth inwardly and expressed outwardly. Not my truth but God’s truth about me and for me, that’s what I desire to live out. So what is my gap adding to my life? Greater truth that ebbs and flows into every part of my being, this is the fulfillment of God in me (John 14:23, 16:13); that I may known Him and be made known of me (Philippians 3:9-12).

Make the most of your gaps! Ceci

#gothroughit #makethemostofit #youreworthit

Curiosity is useful…

Picturing Moses being captivated by a bush burning that was not being consumed (Exodus 3:1-4), I am captivated by God knowing Moses would be captivated by that sight. Inherently, God knew Moses was a curious type and to ensure that he would get Moses’ attention, he created the perfect situation. As a child, being curious meant you were nosey or a busy body. It was not considered a good trait yet it is common among intellectuals, scientists, authors, etc. In some areas of the body of Christ, it is still frowned upon.

If it is not useful, why did God utilize it with Moses and why does He continue to use it now? Matthew 6:33 (KJV), “But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.” Seek and curious could be synonyms, let’s see. Noah Webster 1828 defines curiosity as “a strong desire to see something novel or discover something unknown. either by research or inquiry…inquisitiveness.”  Seek defined from the same text means, “to go in search or quest of; to look for;…to inquire,…to endeavor to find or gain by any means.” I believe they are synonymous.

The kingdom of God is largely unknown to us. Jesus revealed the kingdom to us yet it is our curiosity/seek that will draw us into understanding and participation in the kingdom of God. A question I pose often is ‘Why are you a Christian? What drove you to surrender your life to Jesus? What does that mean to you?’

If you have realized everything you ever wanted in being a Christian and there is nothing more to experience, then your hunger has waned and no greater living is to be had through Christ. If your salvation is for cars, money, physical security, and happiness, having that means you’re satisfied. Though that was not God’s full intent, it is your choice to stop there. For the curious, the seeker, satisfaction will not come in things yet it comes in knowing and being.

Paul said in 1 Corinthians 2:1-2 (PHILLIPS) that when he went to the church of Corinth, he intentionally focused on the most pertinent matter; “I did not come equipped with any brilliance of speech or intellect. You may as well know now that it was my secret determination to concentrate entirely on Jesus Christ and the fact of his death upon the cross.” Grasping the knowledge, the power, and sufficiency of Christ’s life, death, burial, and resurrection is a lifelong journey that will satisfy the soul that things could never provide.  This should spark curiosity within to experience the novel opportunity to know, to be seized by the power of God, and to be satisfied with Him.

Through the journey of knowing, we become…We become His righteousness through Christ by faith (Romans 3:21-26 ESV) and sons of God (Galatians 4:4-7 ESV). There is so much to becoming and curiosity is a way to draw it out. It was the curiosity of the Ethiopian to understand the scriptures that brought him heavenly intervention in which Philip was sent to minister to him (Acts 8:26-40). What heavenly intervention is awaiting your curiosity about God and His kingdom?

Some Christian notables were people of curiosity, Martin Luther, Billy Graham, C.S. Lewis and others. Curiosity is not to be underutilized or thrown away, it’s all about what you do with it?

In His Grace, Ceci Myles #curiosityisuseful #whatwillyoubecome

Resources: Martin Luther – https://www.crossway.org/articles/a-brief-introduction-to-the-life-and-ministry-of-martin-luther/

Billy Graham – https://www.christianitytoday.com/ct/2018/billy-graham/billy-graham-childhood-farm-north-carolina.html

C.S. Lewis – https://www.britannica.com/biography/C-S-Lewis

Does temporary have a timeframe?

So I was dealing with a redundant and temporary situation. I know some would say, “get out of it” but some things, God assigns you to endure and not abandon! So, I’m considering the temporary nature of the situation and it dawns on me the above question. I am so done with temporary that I want to know timeframe.

I considered asking people on Facebook but I didn’t want inquires for understanding or context. Sometimes, social media can be a drag, lol! So I continued to ponder and ponder…I knew I needed to write out my thoughts and then God showed me the blog was the best place. So here we are, with an unanswered question that I believe has an answer. I  hope you can identify what I am experiencing, like “Enough is enough” until it isn’t…

God is outside of time yet within the space that I am in. 2 Peter 3:8 ESV says ‘But do not overlook this one fact, beloved, that with the Lord, one day is as a thousand and a thousand years as one day.’ Psalm 139:8 ESV, ‘If I ascend up to heaven, you are there, if I make my bed in Sheol (hell),  you are there!’ See how God transcends time and space yet scripture says not to rely on what we see because it is temporary (2 Corinthians 4:18). Yet in 2 Corinthians, I found the answer to my dilemma!!!!!

In 2 Corinthians 4:16-18, I find that when God tells us to not look at our temporary, He is redirecting to what will take us out of the realm of time. God’s ways are not His ways, so if I want to understand temporary, I must intentionally consider my temporary through his omnipresence (my casual definition of this word is “always here and everywhere for eternity”). Constantly refocusing my gaze on Him, I learn to disregard what I see around me. This refocus takes me out of the realm of time that I do not care about the length. I learn to care about matters like God does as well as avoid the pitfalls of trying to keep time.

I always dislike the habit of people who countdown time, they count the last ten, 8, 5, 3 and 1 minute(s) left on the clock. It has never helped me to do better, it only rushes my decisions and this can be detrimental depending on the circumstance. I am resolved to return to gazing upon His glorious nature because I prefer peace anytime!

My question is answered and I feel so much better, time has it’s place. Though wisdom is the principle thing.

In His Grace, Ceci Myles.

Woulda, Coulda, Shoulda

What would you have done, if you knew better? What could you have done, if you had the opportunity? What should you have done after doing the wrong thing? Questions, Questions, Questions! Unfortunately, once something is done, there is no undoing. You can apologize or justify yet the action is done. Many of us get stuck right there.

We rehearse the woulda, coulda, and shoulda, then we set a course to never do whatever we have surmised was our error again. Since we figured things out, we don’t need God to work it out. Down the line, we realize that our analysis was inaccurate and has caused further harm instead of prevented harm. Upset and dejected, some of us, turn to the Lord and some of us return to the habit of fixing it ourselves.

This habit of fixing ourselves is exactly why we continue to be in woulda, coulda, and shoulda. Interestingly, we were not molded by God with a self-fixing or cleaning mechanism. Unlike the self-cleaning appliance, we do not have that mechanism. So our cleaning/fixing requires a specialist that knows how to fix our errors. At best, we can have an alarm light that signals, “attention needed”, like a check engine light on a car. What that looks like in the believer’s life is a notice of warning in our spirit that something is off usually evidenced in our behavior. We’re short on patience, hard on others, lacking attention to things that uplift us, and/or focused on negativity. At this point, we need to enter prayer and meditation on scripture seeking the Lord to examine our hearts, asking for exposure of what is ailing us or release an unhindered praise that breaks us free from the resistance to the leading of Holy Spirit. When the matter is revealed, we let ‘The Specialist’ work on us.

And just like when a repairman, finishing an appliance repair, gives instructions for use within the next few days or provides insight on what caused the problem, we must follow the instruction of the Lord. If it’s to repent to someone we harmed, forgive someone who harmed us, love on someone, or bless someone with something; we follow the instructions of ‘The Repairman.’

You may be one who has a self-cleaning option, that when you are in error, you quickly repent. That’s is a blessing and be encouraged as you remain hungry for the Lord. Yet understand this, even self-cleaning appliances require a good old-fashioned scrubbing from time to time. Because the work that they engage in can be gritty over time, that a self-clean is just not clean enough.

Let’s not hang out in the land of woulda, coulda, shoulda – proceed on to obtain the promises that God has in store for you. It is difficult to walk forward if you continue to look behind you, allow the Lord to help you so that you may find success.

Isaiah 41:10 NLT – ‘Don’t be afraid, for I am with you. Don’t be discouraged for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will uphold you with my victorious right hand.’

2 Cor. 1:20 NLT –  ‘For all of God’s promises have been fulfilled in Christ with a resounding, “Yes!” And through Christ, our “Amen” (which means Yes) ascends to God for his glory.’

In this journey with you, Ceci #nomorewouldacouldashoulda #Ineedthespecialist


Use Your Options

No matter the circumstance or obstacle faced, you have an option to exercise! Isaiah 59:19 says ‘that when the enemy comes in like a flood the Spirit of the Lord shall lift up a standard against him,’ the standard is the key to the defeat of the enemy in your life.

Noah Webster defines standard as “2) that which is established by sovereign power as a rule or measure by which others are to be adjusted.” What is the rule or measure that God would use? For the believer, our praise is one of God’s standards along with worship, the word of God, and our submission to living holy. These are measures that causes the enemy to adjust, to flee, and to become defeated in our lives.

God is our sovereign power and He’s given you the authority to execute His standard so activate it. Today when the enemy shows up, lift up the praises of the Lord. Open your mouth and declare! Use your options!!!

Exercising my option to praise, Ceci

The Value of Wise Counsel

We make decisions daily with varying degrees of impact. Some decisions cause us to be proud of the resulting outcome and then there are others that we wished we had given more time to for a better outcome. Google truly undermines the value of wise counsel because it gives so much counsel! Loads of information from insta-experts with reviews by unknowns. Today, we need a discerning eye and ear to know what is wise and what is not.

The general context of wisdom is knowledge applied yet there is more to understanding wisdom. See I can take the knowledge of gravity and jump from a high place giving it application. But that does not mean that the outcome was a show of proper application or supportive of future use by others to cause them to profit. So for wisdom to really work for our desirable outcomes, we need to include the word ‘right’. Wisdom is the right knowledge applied (http://webstersdictionary1828.com/Dictionary/Wisdom).

Proverbs 24:6 ESV “For by wise guidance you can wage your war and in abundance of counselors there is victory.” We stand in the midst of battles, small and large daily, we need the counsel of the word of God and trusted advisors. Let’s not just take information and subjective angles of thought to engage this battle of sorts. Seek wisdom and maintain good support that you may discern your next action. Your next decision may take you through the door of opportunity you’ve been waiting for! There is value in wisdom, SEIZE it!